Deelicious Discordia’s Blog of Bedlam

Birthdays suck.

This has been brought to you by Cynic and Nihilisitc Deena, Yeah (C.A.N.D.Y)

Look forward to more PSA’s soon.

LOL

Sounded suoer sexy, so I ran with it.

Websites? I deleted my old myspace, got a new one, and I am starting over fresh. I also (fiiinally!) got my own website, which is in the midst of being updated, but feel free to lurk around:

http://chaostheorydesigns.net

I am quite proud of it (I did it all by myself! [not really...but yeah, I kinda did])

I’m using WordPress as a CMS…way better than Joomla, and much easier that attempting to use Dreamweaver or FrontPage.

I hope to have all of the items I have in stock up by Friday…maybe not the descriptions, but that is no biggie for now.

Knitting? Not so much. I need to start knitting again. After I write this, I will finish this hat that I have been knitting for like the last month (and there is no excuse, really. It will take me 20 mins tops to finish it up).

Binge drinking? My infamous ex-best friend dragged me out last night, and we met up with my other ex best friend’s ex, and we went bar hopping.

I didn;t want to go, but Ash sold me up the river, and I was alf dragged out the house (at 10pm, no less).

This is the run-down of what I drank:

• Amaretto sour
• Some tiki something drink
• Kamikaze on the rocks
• two Yagaer shots
• two JD shots
• a Bloody Abortion (an interesting concoction of Bailey’s, peach schnapps, and grenadine…tastier than it sounds)
• a shot of Patron Silver

I paid not a dime…well, I put $5 towards a cab back home. We were slumming in Park Slope (of all places).

I was tipsy….until I got home. Once I was out of the outside air, I was a wreak.

I was a mess, really.

But now I guess I can understand why people drink.

But drinking is a very expensive hobby….it was over $200 (between three people) for drinks.

!

So then she was like, you’re our new drinking buddy! And I was like….but not every week…

LOL

I have better things to spend my money on than booze…unless I get it for free, and then I’m game.

The rules: Try not to use the same words as the person before you, and have fun!!! (stolen from Aja via Myspace)

1. Where is your cell phone? ……………… on desk

2. Your significant other?……………… non-existant. Whatever.

3. Your hair? ………………………………… hot mess

4. Your brother? ……………………………….who knows?

5. Your sister?………………………………… chilling here.

6. Your favorite thing?……………………… Have loads.

7. Your dream last night?…………………. too drunk

8. Your favorite beverage? ………………………..Clearly Canadan

9. Your dream/goal?………………………….. Famous writer

10. The room you’re in?…………………….. DD Headquarters

11. Your ex?……………………………………….. A douche

12. Your fear?……………………………………. being alone

13. Where do you want to be in 10 years?…….far away

14. Where were you last night?…………..random bars

15. What you’re not?…………………………… skinny, popular

16. Muffins?……………………………………….. blueberry, cinnamon

17. One of your wish list items?…………. an iBook

18. Where you grew up?…………………… Brooklyn Zoo!

19. The last thing you did?………………… smoked cig

20. What are you wearing?………………… big shirt

21. Your TV?…………………………………….. plasma bitches!

22. Your pets?……………………………………. not anymore

23. Your computer? ………………………… Dell laptop

24. Your life?……………………………………… sucks ass

25. Your mood?……………………………….. Bleh….whatever

26. Missing someone?………………………… who isn’t?

27. Your car?……………………………………. I wish!

28. Something you’re not wearing?………… any pants

29. Favorite Place?……………………………… needs clarification

30. Your summer?…………………………….. mostly working

31. Love someone?…………………………….have crush <3

32. Your favorite color?……………………….. Blue, silver

33. Last time you laughed…………………… yesterday. Fun!

34. Last time you cried?…………………….. on Friday

35. Who will repost this?……………………. who knows?

Anna (4:08:17 PM): are you feeling better tho?
Deena (4:08:53 PM): yes, a bit
Anna (4:09:22 PM): thats good dear
Deena (4:10:37 PM): yeah…
Deena (4:10:48 PM): still feel unfabulous, and that no one wants me
Anna (4:11:04 PM): im sure thats not true
Deena (4:11:40 PM): ex-bfs don’t count
Deena (4:11:41 PM): lol
Anna (4:12:10 PM): lol
Anna (4:12:13 PM): i didnt mean that
Deena (4:12:30 PM): lol

Anna (1:42:46 PM): so what happened friday night?
Deena (1:44:32 PM): ahh, remember that guy I was talking to that I didn’t want to talk about?
Deena (1:44:37 PM): I guess it was with good reason
Anna (1:44:37 PM): yea
Deena (1:44:38 PM): lol
Anna (1:44:42 PM): lol awww
Anna (1:44:43 PM): what happened?
Deena (1:44:54 PM): well, we went to the movies, and out to eat
Deena (1:45:03 PM): he was acting weird the whole time

(more…)

They say diamonds are forever, but what about Swarvoski crystals?

Sure they’re not are rare or expensive, but they are shiny and beautiful in their own right…

They glisten and shimmer with all the hopes and dreams of diamonds, and they can be just as precious.

But sometimes precious just isn’t enough….

Sometimes diamonds aren’t enough…

Even in a platinum band setting with 22 of them around an adoring finger…

Swarvoski can take their place with a second thought, in a sterling silver setting, no less.

Rings symbolize a promise…a promise to be together forever.

But sometimes forever just means two and a half years with a blunt end, a careless gesture, a painful blow.

Such is my life.

That is all.

(A PSA brought to you by Yours Truly}

But then…in other news, I talked to someone I haven’t talked to in forever…and it made me happy to talk to them, everything that happened notwithstanding. At this point in my life, I suppose I can forgive even my Da–no, not feeling that generous.

There are three people in this word that it would be extremely hard to forgive:

• My sperm donor (aka father). He’s a deadbeat. a coward. My life could have been so much different if it wasn’t for him.
• The guy I lost my virginity to. He was a real douche. But that is a long story in itself, and we don;’t need t get into particulars, do we?
• My Ex. Now, which one? Ha ha ha. The most recent. I can definitely never talk to him again, not even to see how his kid is….though I am dying to know what’s going on with that. He is definitely unforgivable. Hell, I;d forgive my FATHER before I forgive him…and that’s pretty deep, dude.

Maybe today will be better than yesterday…and so on and so forth.

I’m supposed to be working from home today, so I guess I should go get started on that.

TTFN

Something comes along and fucks up your whole groove.

I should have expected as much to happen.

I do wish I could make myself write more, but I have no life, really. Even the Word-a-Day thing I cannot do….

I need some writing discipline. I need to start writing again…I have loads of ideas, but I can’t get myself to actually sit down and type them out. Hell, I have a few short stories I’d hand written that I need to transcribe from a year+ ago….

Arrgh, and I have yarn that needs to be wound, too. A box-full, to be exact. And I haven’t been knitting much, either.

I dunno what’s wrong with me…

Well, I have done lots of things since the last time I wrote (went to Philly, met a guy, stop talking to said guy, spent lots of money on who-knows-what)….

But nothing I feel like writing about right now.

Good news: i finally bought my own website. As soon as I have it up and running (hopefully before wednesday) I will post a link, and update all my links on Myspace, Facebook, etc.

My birthday is coming up in 8 days.

I’m trying to decide what to buy myself

Umm, I think that’s all for now. I need to make myself feel guilty for not writing, and then maybe I’ll write more frequently.

You think?

(nah)

12 reasons why Hillary’s assassination remark is a BIG DEAL « Bald Eagle 08

Another comment I posted to this user’s blog:

Honestly, who is to say that what she said WOULDN’T happen?

Now, I am all for speaking your mind. But I think that as a politician, you have to be more cautious in how you approach certain subjects. She put this very bluntly, and that’s what the problem with this whole thing is. Honestly, who hasn’t thought that?

I know I have.

America is a country built on racism and race issues. There are many unhappy people because of Obama’s race (no pun intended) for the Presidential nomination.

IMHO, there are many people who don’t wish to have a minority in the highest office in the republic, and there might very well be an attempt on his life.

Why give him all the SS agents he has now if that thought hasn’t been addressed? He has way more than Hillary, and she is entitled to have them (as a former First Lady).

Ponderous, isn’t it?

Clinton’s comment: The dumbest thing ever said in American politics « Bald Eagle 08

I don;t know if they approved my comment or not, but here it is:

What the hell?

I wonder if people realize that Obama isn’t African American…he’s a quarter white, a quarter Cherokee, and a quarter Kenyan. (note: the exact percentage of each composition might be wrong, but the ethnicities are correct.)

But no one likes to talk of these things, I suppose.

Oh well.

I can tell you right now…I;m a brown person, and to vote for someone because they’re not white is ridiculous. I don’t care for Hil either, but at least we know a bit more of her political track recond.

As per 2000, it’s about voting for the lesser of two evils.

I am so sick of this whole thing, it’s disgusting.