I need a Muse.
I’ve had some muses in the past (some have made me very prolific, others I squeezed out a poem or two for)….
There have been two significant Muses in my life…both of whom touched me deeply (and touched me in places that would make you blush….but I digress) and left me raw, naked, and vulnerable….perfect fodder for good poems, so to speak.
So to them, I have to say thank you.
I might not have appreciated they ways you fucked me over, made me happy, and left me completely miserable and dejected then, but I sure as hell do now.
You’ve helped make me the way I am, and I wouldn’t trade any of it for the world.
But I need a new muse….hopefully one that won’t fuck me over
My whatever-you-want-to-call-him-now has been no inspiration whatsoever.
In fact, I always seem to write less when I’m with him. When we first broke up, I wrote all the time. before I met him, same thing. I don;t get it, but I think I kind of do.
He’s just so uninspiring, and shows no apparent interest not only in my writing, but in almost anything I’m interested in. They say opposites attract, but Jesus…we have nothing to talk about besides Family Guy, South Park, and other banal Pop Culture trappings.
*sigh*
I need a muse…..I need to be inspired.
A Few Comments I’ve Received on “Broken…”
12 OctI have gotten a few comments from all over the web about this poem:
Someone from Craigslist:
i liked the poem, very intense…of course with everything that is going on in and around our lives, it was great choice of words…
People from OKCupid:
Well you may feel like shit but you write like a badass. Your emotional spectrum may be dire and dark, but your written expressions are the most colorful blackness I’ve seen in a while. Kudos… oh and sorry to hear you’re feelin bad hopefully it passes soon.
and
Dreams arn’t broken nah, they’re walking with a limp. It’s all what you make of it and if happines doesn’t show up it’s time to try something else.
Interesting, no?
The general feeling I get is that people seem to think I’m depressed or something…
Maybe I secretly am, and just don’t know it yet.
As I explained on Writer’s Cafe, it’s
A free write that came out while pondering life. Not my usual style, but I liked the way it came out
Nothing more, nothing less. I really haven’t felt that out of sorts lately (thank Eris) but….wistful is the more appropriate word.
The best thing to come out of all this?
I’m writing again, and that’s all that matters.